Unequipped

Looking ahead to another day I can’t help the feeling of inadequacy. That I am entirely unequipped for the work before me. I have been diligent in my eagerness to take on more. Naturally I have always been someone to strive for the next goal or achievement, but now I am doing more waiting than reaching. I have entered a new position that I discerned was a calling by God - a calling to grow as a Christian leader and become a servant at a very high level. In this season I feel placed far outside of my comfort zone where accomplishing all that is before me seems daunting and frightful. Each day I have no idea how I am going to do what is being placed before me, which often leaves me anxious and stressed.

Times like this also give me an opportunity to choose a different path, and that is one of trust. And the bedrock of that trust is the humility I bring to the Lord admitting my many limitations. I am limited in time, energy, resources, skillset, emotional capacity and intellectual ability. Lord, I cannot do it. But I know with you, I can. Today I pray for the Holy Spirit to carry me through this day and to equip me with all that I need to do the work before me. This way, I can never boast about doing the impossible - all glory will be given to God for it was His strength, not mine.

“My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness; so that Christ’s power may reside in me. So because of Christ, I am pleased in weaknesses, in insults, in catastrophes, in persecutions and in pressures. For when I am weak, then I am strong” 2 Corinthians 12:9